sisters

aijia:
-closest sis @ college
-willing to spend time with me
-help me alot in studies and family problems
-tease each other whenever we meet XD
-suspect by her friends that i am chasing her!!
-learnt a hokkien sentence from her (si gi na)
p/s : dont kill me XD

daphne yon shuet mei:
-know her when she was in form 1 till now(form 5,2009)
-the way we talk on the phone is like so called *fighting* ITS FUN
-she is my longest little sister ^^ should be proud huh?!
-she said i have brotherly characteristic =)

Stephenie ng a.k.a my gf's church mate -expect the unexpected-
-always tease me with little afro kid
-her birthday wishes to me is *happy bufday little afro =XD*
-she ask my gf how she knows this lousy fella *me*
-she told me watching drama is more important than talking to me XD
-she is a good sis though although she likes to tease me =)

birthday OUTING with Simon XD

had lunch with simon in chili's klcc and then walked around.when we were walking down and plan to go back,simon saw his secondary school mate XD then,we went to wong kok at pavilion yum cha and chit chatting =)as usual, go to grandparent's house for dinner and chat a little...at11pm,yum cha with uncle and his friends which i know them since primary one.at2am,we went back and days gone =) this is my most momerable birthday i have ever had XD hope the following year would be like that too ^^ ciaoz

have you ever thought of suicide?have you ever feel useless that you are not brave enough to do what you wanted to do??i thought of suicide since form one,well my friends as well.but,they have get over it and having a wonderful life now.but i am still lost in this darkness.at the same time,there is nothing i can do besides torture myself. i believe those people who concern bout me know how i tortured myself. i know its stupid to behave that way,but do i have any other choises?i always feel so sad that i am not brave enough to do what i wanted to do such as suicide.the only thing i can do is cut my arms and eat pills.it isnt enough! i smoke cause i hope i can get lung cancer and destroy my life but why am i still living?sis,i promised you not to smoke but again and again,i break my promise to you.i hope jie could understand my situation.Lock myself in the room is what i do every single day when parents at home.do you know what i hate about you?it may be wondering but well,you dont have to now.you break all your promises by giving a stupid excuse.aiya,i heard it wrongly..you think its funny?it hurts me alot but you did not notice.its ok,you dont have to.you dont have to care bout my feelings anymore.I DONT FUCKING NEED IT AND DONT EVER INTERFERE MY LIFE!JUST DONT TALK TO ME AND DONT COMPLAIN FOR NOT TALKING TO YOU.LAST BUT NOT LEAST,YOU WILL NEVER EVER KNOW THE REAL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1321hour
12032009

you convinced me to study this course in order to continue the family business.you wished i could take overit so that you can retire.well,i will study smart and work for other travel company.even though i might not get high pay but still,i had rather work for others instead of your freaking travel company.you might think i am not respect you but does it matter?you afraid other company would not employ me but,i will study smart and prove to you.

1241pm
12032009

Its not i dont want to communicate with you,the pboblem is,you criticise everything i said.Not only that,you are being sarcastic as well.Still remember you told me dont spill out family problems to other?!Its not i dont listen to you but i dont have others way to spill my sadness to besides my sisters(aijia & stepie).I feel so comfortable whenever sharing things with them and they cheer me up.could you do it?Dont blame me for not talking to you nowadays even a single word.You thought you know everything about me,but telling you the truth,you know NOTHING bout me.Stop pretending k. I dont mind you read what i am writing because you are sitting beside me.Whatever i written here is fact, I dont create story!Once again,thanks aijia and stepie jiejie concern me all these while.I appreciate what you have done for me.I can feel it and i am touched.All the best for your finals ya =) jiejie,is you finger ok edi?still paining?skin still peeling off?Thats all for today.

12march
1108hour

happy go lucky

i am happy that i could managed to finish my 600 words essay this morning. i had give up some time but with both of my jie which are alison aijia and stephie's support,at last i woke up 0700 hour to finished it. sorry jies that i disappoint you last night. all the best for tomorrow ya. oh yeah, what time is your exam start and what paer are you having? forgot to ask you =p i think i gtg to the train station now. text you later ^^
lots of love..hugs and kisses

0854
06 march 2009

happy =)

jie ah,thx for the book =) i call u cause i did not see u(at 9th floor) ma..who knows u appeared in front of me XD when i was with u,u dare to tidur..shake the table so hard edi also continue sleeping..what la u =p sad o,cant have lunch with u tomorrow T.T as we know,usually we had lunch every thursday,right?but its ok,know jie bz preparing for final.you know i am understanding de rite?=p hehe..i am glad that, we will meet up when free ^^ *yawn* its 2140 now and i still haven bath XD gtg now,my class start at 8 till 11 tomorrow. please sleep aerly k =( i can see u very tired today T.T feel sad... xox

happy =)

nothing much...

aijia sis and kiki,i am back !had been doing assignment the whole morning.at the same time,i chat with my girl for half an hour?After finish chatting with her, i feel so down. I thought i am the only one who suffering in family and life but then,i realised i am wrong.i should be greatful for everything i have.there is people who suffering more than i am.i wish to help them out but,i dont know how =( everyone has limit!but,i promise i will do my very best.i cant see people suffering.it hurts me alot T.T i wish to spend more time with the person i care the most especially YOU but time does not allowed!but its ok,i know when we got time,we will meet each other.Even few mins but still,i feel greatful =) Final is around the corner same goes to my birthday,but i dont feel like celebrating it.Not the matter of final but whats the big deal of celebrating birthday?! i am not like others.my wish for the birthday are get good grades for final and spend more time with gf and sis.Sis,i promised you not to cut my arms anymore but sorry,i might break my promise.but you have to promise me,dont ever cut ur hand ANYMORE.